fragment (inspired by Sonia Sanchez) | 8.17.04

i wonder if this heart quenching scar will ever go away
it lingers with a smile of yours caught in my throat
stabbing with red tears
staining with black fears
i want to scream out those lies
those falsities you made-believe as reality
i want to vomit your indecency and swallow back my decency
i want to vomit my innocence and swallow your crucifixion
eat and drink those days before your existence
to nourish my puny fingertips
losing its grasp
on me
i want to erase you from my emotional memory
even if my brain forges to forget this pained shame
the sonogram still depicts this blamed infection
constantly mutating its form
but always leaving me alone
hovering with grayness clouding
saving a trace I can never efface
it will always remember

this heart wrenching scar will always remember

a journey beyond those trespassing nights | 7.04

slowly losing grasp of this paradoxical paradigm
sifting through time
leisurely falling
like a free-floating white feather
visions blurry as hazy moonlight moves in disguise
as the wind travels to fondle the sea
with smooth undulation of infinite ripples
like how your fingerprints
carefully trace all surface
forming a constellation
of you on me
from thumb to toe
from neck to navel
through carnal contours of arcs and curves
as you memorize the subtleties of my existence
mesmerize over nuance of mystery and incongruency
and you fold me warm me within soft echoes of your mind
sweet sands of imagination
slowly dissolving
in the midst of mystifying heat
as you absorb sultry beads of fantasized fascinations
permeate to shapeline dimension of sensual reality
like an out-of-body experience
swiftly moving within stillness of invigorating affection
to taste personified epitome of mutual attraction
this…all this
so surreal to you
unreal to me
but

I still feel your resonance
even now