Raw Exploration
Tomorrow is my 31st birthday. This b-day eve has been amazing in so many ways. My writing. Our talks. Dinner with Rachel at Metro Café. Sabrina Ward Harrison’s book with her signature addressed to me. What a perfect gift. She knows me so well and I’m so lucky to have such a thoughtful friend. “Trust the mess. Bless the mess. Give yourself permission.” Sabrina’s messages Rachel shared with me. I think I’ve decided to take Sabrina’s class. I’ll sign up tomorrow, on my birthday. I could not be as ready for this than now. To explore and venture off with my art. As an artist, not necessarily as a writer. I believe it will be yet another growing, stretching of me, beyond anything I can imagine. I think it’s almost necessary for me to do this, NOW. I am so excited about my birthday tomorrow, so excited especially to celebrate it with me, the me that I so love and am proud of now. And celebrate this me with my Timmyso(u)love. Today is a full moon. Full luna. I feel full. I am full. Not just today. But Every Day. We always find our own ways to live in truth and love with truth. Most of the time, in unconventional ways. I love that about us. We create our own rules…no, not rules actually; we create. We just Be. I love this place of me. Of us. Of a we with an amazing future. A life forever. This feeling, like a river, so fluid, so peace-full. I am finally able to flowglow in this fountain of love for me. For us. For a we to come.
31 years of incredible life experiences. It feels good to be able to honestly say and mean it: “I wouldn’t trade it for anything else. I would want or have it NO OTHER WAY.” I feel perfect in my imperfections. They are my scarred treasures, my gems. Sacred in its own crooked little beauty. I am thank-full for all that I am. Thank you for my health and safety to celebrate my life of 31 years. 31. Once so fragile, now so resilient to face and embrace all that makes me ME. All that makes me a soul-full being. Good Night. Sweet dreams. Happy Almost B-day. I love.
Naoluna 菜穂月
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